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Hey, how’s it going? It’s 2:04pm here and I’m at the library. I had a nice night last night, but I went to bed later and that wasn’t conducive to a productive morning today. I’m not really upset about my unproductive morning either. I think it’s good to stay on schedule with the normal week, and start the week right since it’s a Monday, but I had a good time, I spent time with friends, and now I’m feeling good to start this week.

I’ve been revived recently. All the sudden everything is different. While this was a product of my actions, none of the measures I was taking to figure out how to stay balanced or happy were the exact reason for said revival. Over the past week or so, I’ve attended a couple of events in the real world, with real people. People who I was delighted to meet, and I think share a lot in common with me. Previously I was using philosophy and other activities to try to thrive in my own little world, it made a difference, but you really can’t go anywhere, grab the next rung on the ladder, or grow, without leaving that world of yours. Even a short adventure can help.

My past dilemma was in part due to knowing that I had to get out, and seek new things in order to grow, but I couldn’t find any way of doing that, it felt like no matter where I went, who I talked to, or what I did, it got me no where, or it was actively failing, or messing with me and my life. There was of course some good, some growth, but a feeling of being trapped was starting. Like I was saying, I think my reflections and attempts at using philosophy to guide me towards how I feel now, helped, but I also think that sometimes there isn’t much you can do but keep going and preparing until the moment is right and things start to hit. I’m reminded now that I never did a write up on here for my final presentation in my incommunicability class last spring, I might return to that soon to make my views on this clearer.

I’m not under any illusion either that this will last forever, or that things won’t get hard, but hopefully this will lead to even more, and I can learn a lot while I’m in this new space.

I’m going to try and continue more regular blog posts, and like I previously promised, I think the essays will come. This week I want to get a job, because I’m tired of that looming over me, and after that, I have multiple new projects to work on, and I actually feel driven to work on stuff again. Despite my efforts to keep my projects going, I couldn’t get there, apart from the odd burst of inspiration or new interests, because I didn’t have whatever it was that I needed. Now I have that again for the first time in months!

Well this has been a good exercise for getting me into the week. I hope it will be a great week!